Welcome to my diary...

Well^^^that is a sentence I certain did not think I'd ever be saying *Laughs at own sad little joke*
My very own little thread to chart my very sad little blip of an existance on this earth.
Ok, here are some facts about me....in the form on a bebo-style quiz.

Name: Lucy
Nick Name : DJ bassoon in da mix, Lu, Luce, Ribenna
Birthdate : 09.10.93
Eye Color: Green
Hair Color: Brown...brunette if you will
Height: about 5"2
Weight: Haven't weighted myself in over a year, so dunno.
Piercings: Ears
Tatoos: NO WAY ON HELL
Boyfriend/Girlfriend: No...never have...properly
Vehicle: Bike...feet...what else does a 14 year old gal need
Overused Phrase: "Oops"

FAVORITES
Food: Most things...
Pub/Disc/Restaurant: Anywhere foreign
Candy: Oreos (very american)
Number: 14
Color: Black and red
Animal: Lion
Drink: Iced tea, Appletizer
Body Part on Opposite sex: Eyes
Perfume: Midnight Fantasy
TV Show: Friends
Music Album: Bride of Chucky soundtrack
Movie: Child's play series, Harry Potter, The Dark Knight
Actor/Actress: Jennifer Tilly, all main HP cast, All main friends cast

This or That
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
McDonalds or BurgerKing: McDonalds
Chocolate or Vanilla Vanilla
Hot Chocolate or Coffee: Hot Chocolate
Kiss or Hug: Both
Dog or Cat: Cat
Rap or Punk: Both
Summer or Winter: Summer
Scary Movies or Funny Movies: Scary

YOUR...
Bedtime: About 10 or 11
Most Missed Memory: YF weekend
Best phyiscal feature: My hair....if that counts
First Thought Waking Up: I need to go on HE!
Ambition: To get a degree in Bassoon and become a music teacher
Best Friends: Hannah...Connor....Jennifer
Weakness: Food...HE
Fears: Lossing Friends, being bullied again, Anything happening to Hannah, Balloons
Longest relationship: 3 days...

HAVE YOU...
Cheated Your Partner: No
Ever been beaten up: No...not physically
Ever beaten someone up: I hit a girl once for saying something mean about my Best friend
Ever Shoplifted: I ate a 1p sweet in a shop when I was four
Ever Skinny Dipped: No
Ever Kissed Opposite sex: Yes
Been Dumped Lately: No

IN A GUY/GAL
Favorite Eye Color: Emerald Green or bright blue
Favorite Hair Color: Brunette or Blond...or indeed Ginger...or black....I don't mind.
Short or Long: Any....
Height: Taller or same size
Style: Whatever works for him
Looks or Personality: mostly personality...but I do tend to judge looks too
Hot or Cute: Either lol
Muscular or Really Skinny: neither lol

RANDOMS
What country do you want to Visit: America, Malta, France, Canada, Italy
How do you want to Die: Killed by Chucky lol
Been to the Mall Lately: Yes
Get along with your Parents: Yes
Health Freak: Not really
Do you think your Attractive: No...but I like my face and hair
Believe in Yourself: Yes...sort of...in musical aspects
Want to go to College: Yes
Do you Smoke: No...NEVER DREAM OF IT!
Do you Drink: No....not until I'm of age
Shower Daily: Yes
Been in Love: Yes
Do you Sing: Yes...I love my voice...even if that's vain
Want to get Married: Yes
Do you want Children: Yes...a girl called Hermione and two boys called Klaus and Edward

I play the bassoon. I'm on grade 5 and I am hoping to go far with it.
I am a big swot. I do well at school, but the truth is, people get really jealous of my talent and grades and start to hate me. Hannah always makes me feel better though. She's my very best friend in the whole world (even though that sounds childish) and no-one could take her place.
In school, if I don't make prefect, I can honestly say I would die, because it's another goal that you get one chance at.

Ok, I have to go to bed now, but will update here as much as I can. Take care everyone.
LucyXX

12.08.08

My mum has said I should ring my friend Hayley and arrange to meet her...but see the thing is, Hayley is the biggest user I know. She borrows money off me and never gives it back and she never says "Thank you," and she always wants my answers to the homework.

I'd like to think that next year (Start of GCSE's) when we are doing different subjects, she wouldn't ring me and ask me about a subject that I'm not doing.

And if I do call her, what would we do. I can't go to the pool because...of the reason.
I don't want to go into town because I only have like a fiver in my purse.
I might go to the movies...but only to see Batman again.

And I just know that she'll want to come back to my house and read my diary in front of me....and that's always unbearably shameful.

Phrase of the day: 'Nothing's private.'

LucyXX

Same day...only later

Bride of Chucky and Childs play 3 are on....and I cannot watch them because my parents dissaprove. I mean, two of my favourite movies of all time are on and I can't even watch them because the elder's think that they are unsuitible. I would understand if I didn't do well in school or something because of them, but I do well in school regardless of what I view on television. I wish I could get it into their heads that I'm not a little kid anymore who is scared of her own shadow. I don't get scared at horror movies....so now I'm stuck watching a mellow horror drama type thing...the fog...which isn't even remotedly entertaining. This blows! I WANNA WATCH CHILD'S PLAY!

Another phrase for today: Being a teenager sucks sometimes...

LucyXX

13.08.08 12:20 pm

I'm just up, so it is only right for you to assume that I look less than my best right now.
I had another nightmare last night....much like the last time, but with an added twist. I'm in a darkened corridor, and the only light there is in it is at the end, an open elevator it's source. It's like the elevator is waiting for me. I walk slowly down the corridor, my ears alert for any kind of sound. I walk into the elevator. I press the button. I am very aware of a presence beside me. Whoever it is reaches out to touch me, and that's when I wake up. But the scary part is, I felt the touch myself...not just in my dream....or my nightmare. I don't understand. I keep having this same nightmare with more added to it once every month. It's so weird. And it's always in and around the 11th-14th. That date is not specific in any way to me, so I don't know why that is.

Phrase of the morning: What the hell is happening to me? Am I losing it?

Hey Lu! Nice diary... I need to start doing mine again *sighs*. I get nightmares like that. Scary, innit? My BF says that it symbolizes death. How ice.

Shadow: I know lol, very....nice. It's really weird dreams like that that tend to freak me out.

^^The post above...one of my best friends, along with Hannah^^
Another entry
Same day....a bit Later.

I realised that writing things down here makes them easier to think about, and even to talk about.
That's why I listen to 'Crazy' by the Kidney Thieves...because it's my happy song...though it's quite depressing

Song lyrics:

Crazy, I'm crazy for feeling so lonely.
I'm crazy, crazy for feeling so blue.
I knew you'd love me as long as you wanted,
and someday, you'd leave me for somebody new.

Worry, why do I let myself worry?
Wondering, what in the world should I do?
Crazy for thinking that my love could hold you.
Crazy for thinking that my love could hold you.

I'm crazy for trying, crazy for crying, and I'm crazy for loving you.


LucyXX

P.s I just found out that I didn't get into a senior orchestra group...but I'm on a waiting list...I guess it's another year of the Junior orchestra.

Oh lucy, my little minion, that stuff about Hayley is so true xD
Although i still like her in some ways, she is mean to you tsometimes though, i try to discourage that the best i can.
You really don't have to talk about the reason i don't think anyone really wants to know, sorry but its the truth xD
write soon x

Pickles: xD but that's me anyway...miss truthful...well....thanks for reading my diary...weird sentence...but anyways...on with the show, Ladies and Gentlemen

^^The sweetest guy I know^^

Another entry.....same day....different time

Spent an hour having a big laugh with Hannah making video's for youtube that we're going to call the 'dude' series. It rocks....I will post the link here when we put them on youtube.

Ok, if you didn't already know, I am a Christian. I have been one for three and a bit years. It is a big part of my life. SU at school is really good, because me, Pickles and my mate Ckare all get together and have fun learning about God there.

Alot of my friends at school say that I can't be a proper Christian, because I like Harry Potter, but I believe that is untrue. I think you can be a Christian, and still love the great Potter.
People make the mistake in thinking that I idolise Harry Potter, when I don't at all. I try as best I can to follow the 10 commandments, so therefore, do not like or make idol's in any shape or form.

Fact: At Hogwarts, I believe there would be an SU kind of thing called Christian Wiz in which young wizards could get together as christians.

Lucy Lucy Lucy. How many times to do i have to remind you that the people in our scholl don't understand us? Listen again carefully while i tell you.

Okay lets get someone random
*coughs Jessica Gamble and Hanna Pierson cough*
They don't undersatnd you because they don't know what its like to enjoy something innocent, wholesome and pure. I tell you that they just tease you about that stuff because they know it will get to you. Harry potter is not the anti christ i tell you!!!!!!! It is not!!!!

Pickles: Thanks for that Well, just letting you know I watched Bride of Chucky last night. Lol....Tiffany getting electrocuted in the bath LMAO

^^ I owe this guy like....a million....will explain why below.^^

14.08.08

I'm feeling like such a mango at the mo. I've got border-line insomnia (Sleeping disorder) and so am a bit tired right now. I absolutely have to ring Hayley today, according to my mother, which is fair, because I think I must have spent over eight hours on the internet yesterday. Am going to my aunties later, which should be fun because she has a fast computer and a nintendo Wii!

I'm going to take this oportunity to thank Pickles (AKA Matty) for helping me report a girl who incidentally tried to kill me. Ok picture this:

It's sports day. You event has just finished. You go over to talk to your mate when all of a sudden a bunch of girls (one my age and a couple older) start teasing me about my fear of balloons. Now, I know what you are thinking, 'what kind of freak of nature is afraid of balloons?!' and I know it is an irrational fear but whatever ok. It even has a medical name (Globophobia). Well, anyway, these girls started teasing me about my fear, and on crept up behind me and yelled bang. I didn't flinch as I normally would, but instead stood strong. Then, one of the girls said, "Well, if she's not scared of balloons, maybe she's scared of this!" The gril took out a lighter and an aerosal can and sprayed the can and lit the lighter in my direction. A 'fireball' can towards me, and if Pickles hadn't pulled me out of the way, I would have been scroached.
My best friend Hannah (Gryffindor_gal_filly) convinced me to go to someone and tell them. I told my parents who convinced me to report it. So I reported it to my VP, and Pickles gave his account of what happened too, and the girl was caught and suspended for....wait for it.....only 3 days!

But at least it was something of a punichment for her actions.

So, I publically say thank you to Pickles, or Matt, for being a key witness to what happened. Couldn't have been done without you kid.

Thanks a million
LucyXX

Phrase of the day: Being a hero doesn't require a heroic deed...just helping a friend in need counts a heroisum.

Lol Lucy, gotta admit is i had a picture of your face when they did that i would put it up. the look of shock on her face OMG it was sooo funny. But what the bullies did wasn't nice so i sorta helped Luce tell on them xD
Thank you for the 100th thankyou Ive got for that reason

^^ Thanks again Pickles ^^

Same day, only later

Am at my auntie Sandra's house. Her computer is really really fast (YES!) and so I'm posting as much as possible. Shannan and Beverley were over today for an hour. We had fun putting make up on. I actually think I may get on with them better now. But they did say I cannot pull off dark colours, which I think is untrue, because I think it makes me look a bit more striking.

Phrase of the day: Rebelling against your friends can be fun.

15/08/08 6:48pm

My mum is toying with my emotions by making me do the dishes...
I hate doing dishes. I would take cleaning the loo over doing dishes (did I say that aloud??)) or vacuuming or ironing....anything but the dishes. I don't understand why we can't just put them in the dishwasher....at least on night every week so I can have a break.
Anyway, learned to play 'I have a dream' on bassoon. It rocks dude

Will write more soon
LucyXX

Lucy!
It wasn't Shannon that said that was it? It was Beverly, she's just afraid that you'll appear better than her xD
Plus the emo look suits you period =)

And mums ruin the buzz all the time, don't worry about it, xO

^^It was both of them Pickles...and thank you.

16.08.08

The rainiest day I've ever seen in my life. I'm, as it is probably obvious, in the house, and slightly cold.
I want to go to Hogwarts so bad, and if I can't go there, then I want to go to an old, typical english boarding school.
That would be awsome.

Fact of the day: The film 'Wild Child' rules!

LucyXX

17.08.08

What happens when the movie you've been looking forward to forever isn't coming out until July next year. That's right. My worst nightmare has indeed come true.
They say the new Harry Potter ,movie is coming out later than expected because they want it to have equal, if not more views than Twilight.
IT'S HARRY POTTER for goodness sakes. Twilight is important too, but really, could you not just give it to us now! PLEASE! I've been bursting into tears randomly about this in public places.

And worst of all.

Yesterday, when I went to see the movie 'Wild Child', the Harry Potter trailer was one of the advertisments before the film began.
She it is basically like dangling it in front of our faces.
Once so close...
Now oh so far away...

I want to die....

Phrase of the day: WHY?!

LucyXX

Luce, dry your eyes, we'll go see twilight then thats it until July, honestly it makes no difference they'll probibly bring out more trailers before July comes xD And then you can go introduce your new prefect tie to Harry Potter

^^ La la la la la NOT LISTENING!^^

18.08.08

Time goes by....so slowly, as the song goes.
Incredible bordem is making me do weird things, like watching a scary movie when no-one else was at home last night, and making my face look like Tiffany Ray's from bride of Chucky (That was actually practice for Halloween...an attempt to make myself look sexier than I am)
Lord, I'm so bored, I'm even considering going to dance lessons...and I don't dance.

LucyXX

Haha Matty said period.

Is that terribly immature?? lol

ANYWAY

love the diary kid

and if i was smarter I might start one of these me self

I may well actially ... *runs off*

xxxx

^^MY BFFL (Best friend for life)

Same day....later....

My daddy has to work night shift tonight. He works as a security guard at a shopping outlet in my town. I don't like the fact that the shifts are long, because I don't get to see him as much...

Oh...that's selfish...I should feel happy for him that he has a new job...

Phrase of the day: Different day, same sh*t!

LucyXX

LUCY!

such words my love! imagine!!!!

*hehehe*

i have taught you well my son

poor daddy

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

^^Thanks dude lol^^

SAME DAY! AGAIN!

Friends theme, to symbolise my friendship with Hannah, Jenn and Connor.



F.R.I.E.N.D.S theme

So no one told you life was gonna be this way (four claps)
Your jobs a joke, your broke, your love lifes DOA
Its like your always stuck in second gear
When it hasn't been your day, your week, your month or even your year

I'll be there for you,
When the rain starts to pour,
I'll be there for you,
Like I've been the before,
I'll be there for you,
Cause your the for me too!


Luv all you guys
You're the best!

LucyXX

Same day again

This is what my life can be like...it the form of a story...one shot sort of thing.

Isnt it funny that when you go to the shops with your friends you look down at the girl with black jeans and studs but smile at the girl wearing a a mini with a tshirt that barely cover anything?

Isnt it funny you can change your music taste to impress a guy but when it comes to a girl who likes her own music and her own style, you give her a mouthful?

Isnt it funny that a guy can get away with being a gangsta but the emo gets a mouthful from everyone

- Are you laughing?

-Why are you laughing??

- Im not laughing

Its so funny that you and your friends can make a girls life hell and not know anything about the silent battle she might be fighting.

Isnt it funny that you can call emos, punks, goths the losers but still manage to get through your day without an inch of guilt in your heart.

How can you call a girl a poser, how can you say "you're emo" or "attention seeker" without spending a second trying to figure out why she spends her lunchtimes crying instead of laughing with her friends

- Keep on laughing

Isnt it funny you can say and do all this without any idea of what is going on in this persons life

without knowing her situation with her friends


or her Life

Brave is not saying a speech

Or dumping your boyfriend

Brave is

Going to school on mufti day and not for a second caring what the girls around you are saying about your clothes

Its listening to your own music and being proud of it

Its going through every day with the things people say to your face and behind your back and you still keep quiet

Its knowing what your "friends" are saying about you and still calling them your friends.

LucyXX

A GOTHIC STORY!

Cold wide swept my face as a walked down the darkened path with only my footsteps for company. I had the miggled sensation of anxiousness and excitement. I had the terrible feeling I was being watched, yet I did no want to look behind me. My breathing was coming sharp and fast and I could see delicate looking leaves on the ground that had fallen from the surrounding trees not so long ago. I kept walking, the feeling of being watched growing ever stronger with each step I took, and I decided to the light the candle I had been carrying since the start of my journey.I lit the match a put it to the cold wick, watching the flames struggle for birth. Finally, the candle took light, and so I walked on, watching the flames dance. I was completely sure by now that there was someone...one something behind one of the trees, so I glanced left and right, but alas, nothing showed itself, though I still had an uneasy feeling. Finally, I found what I was looking for, the square in which the strange man told me about my towns past, about how there was very little security and mad men roomed the streets. The thought of it gave me yet another bout of the chills, so I cast around in my mind for something to think about.
"Looking for something?" said an unfamiliar voice in my ear.
I slowly turned to look at the person who had utted these words but as soon as are eyes met.....I woke up.

Oooooh .... shivers my man, shivers.

*Is thoroughly creeped out and runs to her mum*

S'all good now
xxx

*clamps* Yay I love story time! <333

^^*Grins* thanks dudes^^

19.08.08

Received info about my advance teaching bassoon lessons today in the mail. Can't wait, but at the same time, really really nervous, because my music teacher has a habit of yelling at me for nothing. And now, as appose to 15 minutes yelling at me, she has about 40 minutes to yell at me.....help.

Also, here are my Key stage 3 results
I got:

Level 7 in English
Level 6 in Maths
Level 6 in science

So in other words...I did well!

YAY!

So happy with myself....even if that's vain.
LucyXX

20.08.08


WAAAAAAAAAAAAA LAST DAY AS A PREFECT ON HE!
I'm sad....
I need a Pickle hug....

MATTY! WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU WHEN YOU NEED YA!
*Reaches out in darkness for Matty*

LucyXX

*lands in*

THIS TIME ILL RIGHTFULLY GET MINE!!!!!!
maybe not xD
*huggles lifts up and squeezed untl Luce is nothing but a talking brain*

*laughs at Lucy*

*laughs along with Rose, louder*

^^Thanks you three lol

21.08.08

And so the new term of HE begins. And I started into wand exams and I did a class on giant wars (Wanted to start earning points for the Gryffies early lol.
So, I have decided, it will not all just be role playing on HE from now on. I am going to work hard to help around the site and such.

Phrase of the day: Hard work pays off.

LucyXX

*gasp*

Less RP?? travesty......rp is the greatest

i miss Jenn

..

*cries*

xxxxx

^^^Aw mate...I'll be on role play just as much as usual...I'll just be in another link of HE too doing other things for the site etc...and I miss Jenn too....WHY CAN'T SHE BE HERE?! *Sob sob*^^^

I MISS JENN TOO! SHES GONE NOW! GONE FOR WHAT FEELS LIKE FOREVER! BUT ITS ONLY BEEN ABOUT TEN MINUTES!

*cries*

Jenno....come back

xxxxxxxxxx

I KNOW....I AM SO DISTRAUGHT!

24.08.08

Our role play friend Jenn (Shadow) has gone away for a long time on a riding Holiday....so excuse any kind of weeping, screaming, yelling, crying or gnashing of teeth from us over the next few days. I shall miss her most terribly....I pray that she has a good time though...and that she will return safe and well.

I MISS YOU JENN KID!
YOU ROCK ME AND HANNAH'S WORLD!

LucyXX

02.08.08

Been back to school for two days. I love my GCSE timetable...sooooooo rockin'

I didn't sleep at all last night...because...of...well reasons....and I burst into tears today...

It was scary...
Don't want to talk about it.
Everything's fine now...

LucyXX

This doesnt have anything to do with....what...er you know? Dont worry...ive been crying all week. I look so...fragile to most now. Im paler then before. *sigh* I hate myself...and before you fuss at me tomorrow about it!!! I know I shouldnt.

Thats why Lesley, i doubt Lucy would tell you, shes probably too nice.
Aye that is why she was cryin and such

Lets talk about cats

xxxx

Yeah she will.....more then you know.....and its scary..in away.


I've never had a cat....well I have but for a day. I'm allergic to them....and I have bad asthma attacks and have the HUGE red patches of bumps all over me....now dogs....i love them

Wooow, seriously? ragin i dont like cats meself, im a little bit allergic too

Dogs, i love them too :D i have one, a black collie/retriever named Bootzeth Harold :D

lol

x

Bootz is a ledge Hannah...lmao.

He rules Doggy World.

Whatever that is.

Karen X

You reckon?

...

lol me too :D:D:D:D:D

i love me my doggie,