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Subject: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Wed May 06 2009, 19:20

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May 6th, 2009

Well, I’m waiting for my old diary to close, I’m going to go ahead and start my new one. The old one was…just to crowded and I was beginning to slack on it. I had spammed it way to much. So this is my new one. Why I want a new one? Because, I just did. Anyway, with a new start, I’m going to go on and start my ranting. School is almost over for me, just about three weeks and I’m out until August. I happen to be a good cook who my teacher now likes but I get very confused. I have to know what something looks like before I can grab it, but whatever. I have made up with friends I had lost, gain new ones, and have lost one.

My dad has stated, he doesn’t have faith in the Lord anymore. I wasn’t too shocked. With what God had him going threw, he took what I said and made it sound like it was a bad thing. But whatever, I still love him no matter his faith. Even if he is a jerk sometimes. My cousin has turned from a bad girl to a Christian Snob. Thinks she is better then everyone, but in reality, she isn’t. My favorite author’s new book is coming out this summer! STRANGE FATES!!! If you love Twilight, you should read these. I swear to you, they are so much better. These are a decade older then Twilight though. They are called Nightworld Volumes 1, 2, 3 plus Vampire Diaries Series and then you have Secret Circle, about witches. The Vampire Diaries will become a tv show with some of my favorite stars in it. The chick from Degrassi, Mai, will be playing Elana..sooooo far from a Blonde though.

Kimmers is my twin, yes…we have made it known. I am the evil one she is the good one. I don’t know why though, she is eviler then me XD.

-Violet

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Sun Oct 25 2009, 19:17

Awwee. vi that not good but the good lord will watch over you. Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. - Page 3 436937

He'll make sure your safe and everything turns out well

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Mon Oct 26 2009, 00:17

Awww love you vi. Hope yout okay Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. - Page 3 436937

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Fri Nov 13 2009, 19:49

November 13, 2009

So...the doctor said it was normal for having protien in your urine. I could care less...but him and my regular dcotor want me to go to Florida and see a Neruologist(?). So yeah...knowing my mom, that's way out of proportion. She wont take me...so whatever. The head ache has came back, but it truly never went away. It would come and go, but its been there all day today. So yall remember 'Good Guy'? Well...we have had so many fights its not even funny. And each time, I tell him I'm sorry...for everything he does. It's not my fault...he just...I dont know. I have my cousin afraid he will hit me one day; my friend Josh, Jerry, and Erin thinking he will get really mad one day and wont stop himself; and my friend Nicky thinking I need to just...slowly keep my guard up and back away from him. I have no idea what to think...

No matter how much I try to make him leave me alone, he tells me I cared nothing for him and stuff. When he doesnt have a girlfriend, he likes to be touchy and clingy...but when he gets a girlfriend, he gets distant and always mad at me...its not fair that I have to be the only person who sees this. I'm just wait, waiting for the moment he trys to raise his hand and hit me again. If it was easy to just let him go on with his 'perfect rich life' then I would...but he wont let me stop being friends. No matter how much I try to tell him I dont want to be, he guilt trips me, makes me feel bad for his mistakes. When he gets mad, he takes it out on me, when something goes wrong, turn to me. When he has a mental break down, turn to me. None of his girlfriend's have seen him mad, seen him upset, almost been hit by him, or talked to him during a mental break down.

Thrusday was the best day of my life...for the first time in a month...I didnt have to worry about him, worry rather I was doing something wrong...or watch what I say. It didnt dawn to me until Thursday...I watch just about everything I say. I really think...surely but slowly...he is trying to make this happen. I have no idea. Today at lunch, it seemed him and his friend Justin had made the plan to talk about his girlfriend the whole time...but stopped when I started acting weird. It was hard to breath...it was just...I dont know...but they stopped when I was about to cry. My friend Sean is trying his best to make me go mad about all this stuff...but I dont care anymore...and I think that was part of Good Guys plan too...make me not care about anything anymore...except what I say....

So I got myself sick again. I hate it...I hate being sick. I hate everything...or just about everything. I got A's and B's on my report card, but whatever. My sister outshinned me, my cousin outshinned me. My head just doesnt want to stop hurting and I have a new found love....Owl City. Vinalla Twillight is just...sweet and sad.

-Vi

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Fri Nov 13 2009, 21:44

Vi, I am so sorry! That is a horrible thing for him to do. You don't deserve it at all!
As for the sickness thing, my friend Sami Jo has been having the same kind of symptoms that you've been describing and her doctor said that it was almost all induced by high stress levels mixed with minor depression. Do you think that could be whats going on for you as well? Anyway, I love you a lot a lot and keep your chin up. Im here for you (:

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Fri Nov 13 2009, 21:46

I dont know...I'm sort of use to his ways by now...it was refreshing not to deal with it Thrusday...but I doubt its depression...it could be...I dont know...

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Fri Nov 13 2009, 21:59

Yeah, I know what you mean... But still, it just seems morally incorrect for people to treat others that way. Hm, we should WebMD it! That always helps me figure out what I'm sick with (: That sounded dumb, but I meant it in a good way?

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Fri Nov 13 2009, 22:02

As I said...I grew up like this...nothing different about it now that I'm older...and I dont really care much for WebMD...I tried it once and it said I was a skitzo...

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Fri Nov 13 2009, 22:12

Wow really? That is silly. It once told me that I had a broken leg, but I had burned my arm. Thats the only time that it really messed up for me. Although, it was probably my fault for not working it the right way. *shrugs* I don't really know. So, besides all the health issues and boy drama, how have you been doing?

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Fri Nov 13 2009, 22:18

Tired. And very...secretative...I just...dont want to talk to anyone about anything else really...you?

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Fri Nov 13 2009, 22:48

Eh. Same here really. I just feel out of it since I moved to California.

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Fri Nov 13 2009, 22:52

Awww...I'm sorry. You should really get MSN or something like that so it can be easier for us to talk. I dont really get on the HE much anymore...something told me to today though...so thats the only reason I'm on right now.

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Fri Nov 13 2009, 22:55

I have a yahoo? but I dont get on it that much. I would I just never have anyone to talk to :/

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Fri Nov 13 2009, 23:00

I can add yahoo to my MSN...but its easier to add MSN to yahoo...and I'm on MSN every night so you would have me to talk too : ) plus Josh is on most of the time!

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Fri Nov 13 2009, 23:07

Okay, how do I do add MSN to Yahoo? Josh, magicheartbeat?

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Fri Nov 13 2009, 23:13

Just go to add a contact and put my email address in. And yeah, that Josh. My abooboo! Long story for how I got that name....

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Fri Nov 13 2009, 23:14

Well, I just made an MSN so just add it there?

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Fri Nov 13 2009, 23:22

Yeah...that way...we dont spam this thread...

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Sun Nov 15 2009, 00:30

Hello. Violet!! I want you to know that I love you!! And I miss you!! And to never give up in life, or else it'll have defeated you! And you're a strong chika, so keep your head up so you can see the upcoming obstacles! Because unfortunately there will be more things that come and try to 'ruin' our lives, and what we do in these situations shows how we will make it in life- so be strong! Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. - Page 3 436937

Just wanted to say something general about life, and I hope that all is well! *huggles*

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Mon Nov 16 2009, 00:23

November 16, 2009

Feeling it coming in the air,
hear the screams from everywhere,
Im addicted to thrill,
Its a dangerous love affair.

Life's a game but it isnt not fair.
I break the rules so I dont care.
So I keep doing my own thing.
Walking tall against the rain.

Love this song...it fits. I cant sleep...head ache decided to come today...so yeah. I feel like throwing up but whatever. My mom didnt fuss when she saw my up...she just asked and said me too, and sat up for a while with me. So no sleep for the night...I'll be up all day but whatever. I hate this...

-Vi

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Sat Nov 21 2009, 19:12

November 21, 2009

So...the other night my head felt like it was on fire. It was just hurting so bad...so I was just laying there. After an hour...my nose felt like it was on fire too so I went to the bathroom and blew my nose and there was blood. I told my parents and they just think it was my sinuses. I'm not that sure because I've never had blood in my nose before. I've only had one nose bled and that was on my 13 birthday when me and my dad were playing and he punched me on accident. And my head just keeps hurting. All you need to do is push really hard on your head and pinch your arm until it hurts, hold for three seconds release and do it again for ten minutes. That's what keeps happening. I mean it stopped for at least a week, only to start again. My meds dont work, I have no idea why. My mom uses them and they work for her, but not me. I've cried, I've slept, I've done everything to try and stop it, but it doesnt work. My mom finally gave in and called the doctor back. They are looking for someone who will take my medicaid. So she has no choice but to take me to the neurologist. Hopefully...someone can help me with all of this. Its...getting out of control...

-Vi

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Mon Nov 23 2009, 21:02

*huggles* Violet they will find the right stuff for you and you'll be fixed in no time. Don't worry too much but I am sorry to hear that you're going through all of this. As for the nose bleeds maybe tehy have to deal with the seasons changing. There was this one kid in our class that during the season changes he would get tons of nosebleeds and boy would his nose bleed. It would get all over his shirt and he would have to call home and get another shirt from home. I know in the end everything will be fine Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. - Page 3 436937

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Wed Nov 25 2009, 03:47

Novemeber 25, 2009

I'm putting another spoiler up...only because it's a TMI thing. Dont read if you are going to bash me...its only for those who I dont talk to most of the time and want to know...

Spoiler:

So we went to get my meds filled and the stupid man kept telling me I was allergic to the meds. I was like...I'M SIXTEEN YEARS OLD!! I KNOW WHAT I CANT TAKE AND WHAT I CAN!!! JUST GIVE ME MY MEDS!! So they did...I kept saying...I'm sixteen dang it...if I was trying to kill myself with the stuff...I would have done it long ago. I'm very creative...I could think of better ways to kill myself. Ugh...it was annoying...I was ready to leave Wal mart and go home...I was hurting so bad...I felt like throwing up...but I didnt. My mom gave me some meds to help me sleep...so that helped.

I get to see my cousin today!! I havent seen her since our grandpa died a few years ago. I love her to death. I've been wanting to see her sicne then...but she lives up north since our grandma died and our grandpa didnt want her to live in a bad way...so he let my grandma's sister adopt her. He didnt do it out of hate...he loved her too...but he didnt know what was going to happen after my grandma died...he knew he was going to pass soon...and he did...just a few years later. And her mom couldnt raise her...thats way she lived our grandma. So I get to see her today : ) I cant wait...I love her to much.

-Vi

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Wed Nov 25 2009, 10:32

Oh wow, Twinny, that isn't good. sad

For all the drugs they're giving you, they'd better be making more progress on you than just saying you're suicidal and stuff! GRR! They'd better watch who they're messing with! haha. LOVE YOU! <3

ANd I am sooo happy to hear that at least somebody get's to see their cousin in alabama! Because I can't see my Bama cousins, so I'm happy for your cousin to see hers!

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Wed Nov 25 2009, 20:57

November 25, 2009

I hurt all over. My back, my sides, my lower stomach...even my upper stomach. Why cant it just...end? My head hurts still...but why? Why did that doctor tell me I was fine...nothing was wrong with my kindeys...? He just made me do a protein test...he should have done at least some exams...I've cried...I've almost made the toilet my friend. It just hurts so bad...and laying down makes it worse....sitting just...makes it alright. Nothing helps me...not even the meds.

-Vi

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Wed Nov 25 2009, 22:44

Darling!!! You're falling apart at the seams!! Imma have to sew you up brand new by the time this has run through!! For your stomach pains, you should get a heating pad on that, it'll probably feel really nice on your sore body.

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Sun Nov 29 2009, 19:53

November 29, 2009

I have to go back to the doctor tomorrow for a check up...and mind you...the pain stopped Thrusday and Friday...but Sat, I went to my cousin's baby shower and my back started killing me and my lower stomach was too. I felt like someone was just stabbing me and pulling the knife at my skin. And I got home and there was just a little bit of blood, but not enough to throw a fit. Now...my back is killing me again. But I feel if I complain...my mom will say I'm only doing it to not go to school tomorrow when infact...I'm ready to go back to school. I miss my friends. I miss Sean, Jerry, Justin, Nathan, and Mo Mo...notice how all my friends are boys!? I can only talk to Mo Mo...aka Good Guy. Still not giving his real name...thats what I call him. But I think I am over him : ) No...I'm pretty sure I am. He got me introuble and thats when it hit me...I am already over him...why cant anyone tell that!?

My daddy got in a wreck...well not him, but someone he turned around to help...so he aint coming home tonight...ugh...I am hurting again...in my side...I hope these stupid doctors can help me. I have like...20 different meds on the table...and they are all mine...ugh.

-vi

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Mon Nov 30 2009, 23:40

*huggles**huggles**huggles**huggles**huggles**huggles*

Vi I'm sure someone will figure out what is wrong. I'm sure they will Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. - Page 3 436937

I think you should go to a special hosptial thingy but yes I know you don't have a way of getting there *huggles* Just hang in someone is bound to catch something and then you'll get the right meds and in no time you will be all better. *huggles*

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Mon Dec 07 2009, 18:43

December 7, 2009

Finally...after 3 painful months...the HOSPITAL not my stupid doctor found out what was wrong. Saturday morning, I woke up at six that morning screaming and crying in pain. It was hurting so bad. I mean, I never felt anything worse then that. My mom gave me some meds and for some reason, they worked and put me to sleep for the whole day. I woke up later that night and took some more of the meds and went right back to sleep. Sunday morning, five hours after I went to sleep...I woke up screaming and crying again. After three hours of crying, my dad took me to the hospital. I was so mean adn rude to everyone, but I was hurting. The nurse came back and told me that basically my urine was nothing but blood and told me they wanted to do a CT scan and it hurt so much...just laying down and all. Finally...five hours of being in pain, they came in and told me they dont know how my doctor missed it, but I have a kidney stone the size of a BB (9 millimeters long) and it was stuck in my uters. They said it was also the biggest they had seen in their ER and that I wouldnt be able to pass it. They gave me a pain shot and an hour later, I woke up and told the nurse I was really really sorry for being so mean. She said it was ok, she knew that I was in pain and that she would have been the same way.

Anyone who is EVER considering having a child, I think you may not want to do natural childbirth...having and trying to pass a kindey stone feels like it. You have no pain meds to stop the pain. It made me consider rather or not I wanted to do natural childbirth anymore. I went to an out of town hospital and they were suppose to put me in, but they changed their minds and told me to come home and they are letting me suffer a few more days because they said my stone is waaaay to big and its to stuck for them to crush it, so they will put a stent in. I'm just happy that this may finally be over.

-Vi

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Tue Dec 08 2009, 20:26

Violet hopefully the stent works. I'm sure that it will I'm just superly glad that they found what was wrong Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. - Page 3 436937

YAY for hospitals Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. - Page 3 436937

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Sun Dec 13 2009, 00:36

December 13, 2009

I had my surgery yesterday. I'm so sore. I didnt go to school at all last week and I cant go this week because I'm not suppose to be moving to much. So I wont be going until the beginning of the year. Never...did I think something like this will be happening to me. To make it worse, I got my period and it just made a whole mess with everything. I feel so neausated. My whole BODY hurts. Ugh...I hated yesterday.

-vi

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Sun Dec 13 2009, 16:41

Awwee Vi I'm sorry to hear that but before you go back to school you'll be all better. Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. - Page 3 436937

It just takes some time.*huggles*

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Sat Dec 19 2009, 00:23

December 19, 2009

Well....I am now happy to say...I'm cured. : ) Nothing else is wrong. Three painful months. I had to go threw the worse thing in my life. My teachers told me not to come back to school until the beginning of the year because I started crying at school...my MOM sent me, even thought the doctor told her not to. My stent is gone, but I still hurt. Not as much...its just from where the stone cut my uter. It will heal. As much pain as I was in last week and this week, I found out the Lortabs my aunt gave me...my dad took them and only gave me three!! THREE!! Then he was taking mine even though I needed them. So I was mad when I found out. He was like well you didnt need them. UM HELLO!! I JUST WENT THREW MORE PAIN THEN YOU DID!!! You may have been in the hospital for a few months, but I basically just went threw what pregnant in labor women go threw...maybe worse. You think you are hurting more? I think not. Idiot. Stephy was the only person I basically talked to threw all this. I love her so much for it. Thanks for being a good friend, steph. I love you lots : )

Hopefully...this will NEVER happen to me again. This was just to much for me.

-Vi

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Mon Dec 21 2009, 22:19

*Huggles* Vi I love you too and I'm sooo happy you're feeling better. Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. - Page 3 436937

I knew the doctors would figure it out sooner or later. Take it easy now until you're fully back to normal

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Tue Dec 22 2009, 23:52

I'm so glad that you're feeling better twinny! I am sorrry that I haven't been here for you really...but thank God for Steffie!!! Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. - Page 3 436937

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Wed Feb 03 2010, 18:58

Feb. 3, 2010

I'm still here....sorry if it seems like I just left everyone....I havent. Here goes the 'I'm a teen so I'm always depressed' speech. Lately, I have felt this way and I have started getting into alot of stuff....theres this new girl at my school, named Jade. She is really nice and awsome and stuff. I'm not going to talk about what I've done so far but its not that bad...maybe everything will make sense one day...

-Vi

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Thu Feb 04 2010, 15:10

Hey sweetie Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. - Page 3 436937

How you going? I missed you so so much cause i havent talked to you in ages sad

I was having internet problems, and then we were never online at the same time, but i hope your feeling better ratty. And i'll probably be on msn all day so if you get this log on so we can talk. Loves you heaps xoxoxox *tacklehuggles*

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Tue Feb 16 2010, 13:19

*huggles* VI!!!! *huggles again* VIOLET!!!! *huggles* I MISS YOU ON THE SITE!!! THE SITE IS A LONELY PLACE WITHOUT YOU!!! VIOLET!!! *huggles*

I hope all is well Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. - Page 3 436937

*huggles*

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Sat Mar 13 2010, 13:50

March 13, 2010

Well...either I've made a return...or I'm just here to be here...we'll see

-Vi

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Fri Jul 02 2010, 15:31

July 2, 2010

I guess I lied- I wasnt back. I'm giving it one more shot though. So much has happened. I have a baby cousin, a cousin on the way, I had a boyfriend (keyword-was) and have been to the bottom of the barrel and back. I'm seventeen now (June 17) and I'm in 11th grade. I'm in advanced this year and sorta happy about it. I feel like a horrible person, ignoring this site. My boyfriend, Logan, sorta made me realize life behind a computer isnt fun...and then messed it up. Needless to say, we fell hard for each other but I think I was the only one who didnt pick herself back up. I'm over it now, we are sorta on talking terms...and thats about it.

My cousin decided to name her son Zane Alexander. I felt him kick today-four times. I was like OMG DUDE THIS IS AWESOME! And she said no one usually gets to feel him kick. And me and her have decided I'm going to be Aunt Lesley...no ifs ands, or buts. My cousin is like a sister to me and my mom raised her when Blair was younger. When my mom got married and all, it sorta just stopped. I lost contact from all my friends here, except nixy and Stephy.

Sometimes I talk to stephy...when I need to. I dont talk to clafin anymore...sorta a weird reason why. My friend Josh (He is on here) talks to me a lot, but yeah, otherwise. Life. Is. Boring.

-Vi

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Fri Jul 02 2010, 17:01

VI! *huggles* I'm sorry I haven't been on MSN recently. There's many hectic things going on in my life right but I should be on soon again and we can talk a loads more Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. - Page 3 436937

I'm glad to hear you and Logan are kinda on speaking terms again and you're over him. I'm also happy to hear that you're gonna be an "Aunt" here soon. That's wonderful news!

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Sun Jul 04 2010, 08:26

July 4th

Well...a few more weeks and school starts back. I dont want to go back. It's...scary. Just to be in a new grade with new teachers. Tenth grade started and went by so fast that it really did scare me. I've been up for a while...havent been to be since yesterday and I'm tired. But I'm helping my dad paint my sister's room. I...just dont know about anything anymore. I'm confused about one thing and then confused about another. Sometimes, I think it would be just simpler to see the future and just know what is going to happen. I have a plan for after 11th grade. I'm getting a job during school so I can save money up to go to Colorao for some of the summer. When I was with Logan, one of his friends added me as a FB friend and I accepte. Best Thing Ever. Matthew is my best friend...I love him to death. When I first saw his picture, I was like WE ARE GONNA BE FRAAAANDS! And Low and Behold-we are.

Matthew helped me get over Logan. Matthew has been there for me since April. I thank him for that. I just wish he would calm down sometimes, lol I guess that's why I love him so.

-Vi

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Mon Jul 12 2010, 04:20

July 12, 2010

So, I may be moving in with my aunt. She needs someone to take care of her and no one else wants to. So me, being the only person who actually cares about her, may be doing so. So yeah, thats that. I found out some stuff about an idiot, lost my friend, and confused about a lot of stuff. I just want some peace in my life. Like really. But it doesnt seem like that is going to happen. Oh well. Sometimes, I would like the paint a picture of my world and see what is being messed up. I also want to read people's mind. To find out what people are really thinking and what I'm being lied to about. I guess it's better we cant do that huh?

-Vi

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Mon Jul 12 2010, 12:35

*huggles* Vi I'm sorry to hear this! The one good thing about taking care of your aunt is that it'll give you some nursing experience. I do hope things get better for you! *huggles some more*

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Thu Jul 15 2010, 15:44

July 15, 2010

I think...Logan is trying to take all my friends from me. Why do I say this? First: my friend Taylor. After we broke up, she started talking to him on FB and I asked her not to. She said she wouldnt, but secretly, they started behind my back. I was called a stalker, a physco...everything. I was even called a...bad name. All the while this is coming from a 'Christian' he claimed I was making him crazy, keeping him from church. Sad really...I offered more then once to go with him, I really wanted to, but he was like no, I dont want to. So I started going to church with him cousin, and he got mad about it. So I said fine, if I cant talk to your cousin, dont talk to my friends. Well, soon, I realized he liked her. Why? She's easy...she's not pretty, she's thin, easy, and willing. I really think that's all he wanted from me. As much as he said he didnt. Me and Taylor got into it and I just let her go. She wasnt worth the drama. She's nothing but a brat, a girl who loves to break hearts. I do know one thing- if she talks about me..fine. But if I hear my sister's name from her mouth, I dont think I can refrain. They met in secret behind my back, along with my little cousins....they all betrayed me....when I asked them not to...and I even said if you do, tell me so I can know and not worry. And they didnt.

And now, Kimbers. I love Kimbers...she's my BFF...and Logan only knows her through me. I forgot to tell Kimbers about us breaking up, cause honestly, I thought I did. I had told a lot of people...and it was hard telling everyone. And I guess she asked him about it and I think he got it in his head this was another person he could try to get away from me. One thing stopped him...Kimber's isnt easy. She wrote on her FB she may come to my town to see To Kill a Mockingbird play cause it was the 50th anniversity and this is where the book was written and what it was about. Well...I knew Logan was gonna be like well maybe I can see her...I know he asked his parents and later he wrote 'well it doesnt matter if you came or not, I cant go either' Ok one: stop stalking my friends two: leave my friends alone. Come on...I dont have many friends to begin with, leave the few friends I do have alone. And you know, he blames me for everything. Lights are going out...need to get off before internet goes off again...and this doesnt get up. I'll finish what I mean later.

-Vi

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Thu Jul 15 2010, 21:36

*huggles* Oh Vi I'm sorry to hear all of this. Logan should just leave you alone. During times like these it just proves whose your friend and who isn't. KImbers sounds like a great friend. At least you still have her Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. - Page 3 436937

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Sat Jul 17 2010, 11:19

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Mon Jul 19 2010, 19:04

July 19, 2010

Well...today has been...boring. I really just want to I dont know...figure things out. So I'm watching Degrassi...a show about real life that isnt nothing like the stuff that happens in real life. Meh...I miss my best friend, Matthew. We havent talked in a while. I wish he didnt live so far away. I think I may like someone, but yeah...maybe it's just a phase. School starts in a few weeks, I'm actually really really happy for it. IDK why, but yeah...I am..

-Vi

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Fri Jul 23 2010, 17:06

July 23, 2010

You know those days where you just dont care about anything anymore? That's how I feel. I've been feeling that way for a while. Meh. My eyes hurt, I feel like puking ): and my lower stomach has been hurting like...spasming like when I had my kidney stone taken out. It's very...uncomforty. Meh...I finished reading PLL and that was good. I'm reading a book called After...very very slow so far. But it's good. IDK what to say now but yeah...

-Vi

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Sat Jul 24 2010, 16:21

Hey Lesley...I hope your feeling better from yesterday! Feeling good is absolutely no fun at all:(

And thanks for regarding me so highly, I didn't know I meant so much to you. *blush* Haha, but really, you too are a GREEEEEAT friend of mine, and you need to know that I'll always be there for you whenever you need anything. And as soon as I get my liscence you can call me to rescue you for the day anytime:) And you should know, Logan hasn't tried to talk to me since the day we had our nasty run in that I told you about...so I think he got the picture.

Well, hope your having a good day...on whichever day you read this.

<3 YOOOOU! Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. - Page 3 436937

And don't forget to smile.

Subject: Re: Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me to Sleep.. Sat Jul 24 2010, 16:39

Lol I smiled XD

And yeah, you are my friend...a good one. And believe me, Logan may try again. *mumbles*

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