Tribute to Holly aka Brunette

Some of you will have already heard the devastating news about Ravenclaw's Brunette. For those of you haven't, Holly passed away on 14th March 2008.

we got the news in the early hours of this morning.

Here you can pay tribute to Holly and remember the fun times.

I found out about this yesterday and still can't believe it. Holly's just such a great person. And I know she'll be missed very dearly. For all those who don't know her, she's just one of the greatest people you'll ever know. Always happy and ready to talk to everyone with a smile on her face. And you can't help but be happier after talking to her. And she's just unforgettable. After all, who could forget all those hilarious headless hunts in the chatbox? It's never a dull moment when Holly's around.

She always did remember to always call me Jenn(ie) xD And all the amazingly random things she would say that would oddly make sense. lol And who could ever forget her gorgous face and happy smile. A wonderfully beautiful person inside and out.

Holly really is like a special star in everyone's hearts. And she will always be remembered and loved. My heart goes out to her family and friends.

I didnt know her too well, but she had always been nice to me and she seemed like a great person. She will be missed.

I never really got a chance to get to know Holly. We never really were on at the same time and all. I do remember her though. She really seemed like a great person and I wish I had gotten to talk to her more.

I remember one day in ChatBox we were all talking about Music and i demanded everyone should listen to My Chemical romance, Holly was the only one who did and she thanked me for it.

She was the Queen of ChatBox, always doing something funny, always making us laugh.

I didnt want to believe that such an amazing girl can be gone, she was a fighter, and like Jenn said a beautiful person on the inside and out.

I love her "mix match day at school" photo. That's how i'll remember Holly, always smiling.

I know that this hurts a lot of us. It hurts me and Amby both so much. I think that Holly wouldn't want us to mourn her to long. She was a happy person and probably wants us to be happy as well. It hurts and I am pushing myself through this. She was more then a friend online to me. She was more like family. Given I didn't get to get on very often but when I did she was there for me, or my head. I first started talking to her via HEBB and now HEBB2 just won't be the same for me. It will be a bit bitter sweet really. I miss her already. I realized that people in HE will be the people to understand the pain more then others. Most people are all you never actually met her so it isn't that big. It is it really really is. We are more then just online people and all though most of us will never meet each other, we are family. So losing Holly is just as bad as losing anyone else that was close to you. She understood me and my mood swings. She made me smile when I didn't want to. She helped me. She will forever be in my heart. Live on but never forget!

I Had to write a tanku for English last night after I found out the news so I dedicated it to her. Amby helped me. It will be in my siggy, soon I hope.

She will be forever missed and I feel for Harry and everyone in her family. Both families. In Person and Us online.

I will always remember her as the Headless Horsewoman. She made my day. Now I will miss her forever.

I agree Cat. I wish I had gotten to know her better.

Oh my.... I am shocked, I'm just finding this out and it's horrible..

Even though I have not had the chance of talking to her too much, I remember her from a chat talk last year - she seemed to be such a cheery, fun person... and then I remember I was shocked at finding out her daddy passed away. And now's she's gone, too, and like many of you, I wish I had gotten to know her better.

Holly, you shall be in our prayers.

I never got to know Holly and by all of yall have said i am sad that i never did. I feel so sad for her family and friends.

My very first duel here on HE, back about a year or so ago I was paired against Holly. I didn't know her at the time but right after our duel ended she PM'ed me to say how much fun she had. After that we became friends, exchanging MSN conversations and chat box convos. I remember when she was declared the Headless Horse Woman and cut people's heads off in the chat box.

She always had a fun way about her that made me smile. From her loving us with M&M's to her *hugglesmuggles* I am really going to miss her. She was my HE sister and friend. We had many chats, good and bad, and I am happy I got to talk to her earlier this month. I will cherish that saved convo with us. She was so excited to hear about the news of my engagement and was saying how it was like a fairytale. I wish she would have gotten to experience all of that.

We love you Holly and are going to miss you wicked. My thoughts and prayers are with Harry as well as Holly's 2 other sisters. I LOVE YOU HOLLY!!!

I really didn't know Holly very well, but I know that I would have been very very honored to call her a friend. Though I talked to her a few times, that was it, but now, I wish so much that I had made more of an effort to connect and get to know this amazing girl who touched so many hearts. As many people have already said, she was so beautiful inside and out, and even the people who didn't know her very well, like me, knew that.

Last afternoon, when I first found out about the news, I was feeling really depressed. But... at my All-County Band concert last night, we played An American Elegy by Frank Ticheli, which was written in remembrance of the incident at Columbine High School on April 20, 1999, and when I played it, I thought of her, remembering. It made me feel better xD. I thinks she's up there somewhere, laughing and smiling and looking down on us. *sends more tacklehugglespouncesclings* I feel so bad for her family and close friends, many of who are on here and have already posted. *huggleshuggles*

When people say
That life's not fair
I think of you
and how you cared.

I think of all
the people you touched
and I think you know
that they love you so much.

Meshing love and M&M's
You will be remembered forever;
Joking and teasing and having fun in chat
Forget you? Never.

We'll remember your smile
We'll remember your laugh
Your huge caring heart
Ours are broken in half.

But by honoring you
and with you in our thoughts
You're never too far
for we love you lots.

Sending fresh pages of books
and one long ocean breeze
plus the season of winter and
cinnamon-vanilla seeds.

Forever remembered
You shall be
Every day in our hearts
Happy, laughing Holly.
~ March 26, 2008

RIP Holly
You live on in our hearts.

...Holly just PMed me recently saying that her surgery had been successful and that she thought that she would be fine. I was so estatic and the two of us had such a huge spaz, huggling each other, squeeing, just generally being loopy. I can not believe that she is gone, I miss her so much - its so cliche but I feel like a big chunk of me is missing. We were so close, I just, can't believe that she is gone.

She used to call me her "Lizabean". xD

I haven't posted in here yet mainly because I don't know what to say. I did have the privledge to talk to Holly a few times but I wasn't even close to knowing her as well as some of you do. However, I still am really sad to hear that she passed away. My stomach sunk the moment I read the topic on the notice board. She was always so nice and happy, and I will miss her alot. I feel terrible for her family and friends, and for everyone on HE who knew her well.

That song makes me cry... xD. And I agree with you. I feel as if I've kinda run out of words, and as if I'm left with only feelings... *sigh*.

I'll always remember Holly for being a truly funny, warm, kind and generous person, never too busy to talk to you and never one to speak a mean word about people.

There are very few people in life like her, and to lose her like this is devastating.

My thoughts go out to Harry and his family, and to everyone here who had the privilege of knowing her. Goodbye Holly, love you and miss you

I cried when I received the message from Lily. For a while, I cried, because the effect that this has had on me personally cuts deep. Not only have I not had the chance to talk to Holly in the past six months; a close relative of mine was diagnosed with brain cancer on New Year's Day.

But then I stopped crying, because I'd had enough of knowing so many people who had passed away.

And I remembered Faith, who passed away on 14th March, 2006, and wondered whether we should brand it as an unlucky day.

Then I read this. And I'm crying all over again, because the love that you guys share for each other is deep and gratifying, and in these messages, it really shows.

I truly regret not having the chance to share those chats with Holly that you all had. I truly, truly regret not having the chance to get to know her more, to connect, as some of you have said. And I just wanted to tell all of you that Holly is still that bright, vivacious girl that I know. Perhaps with glowing hair. And a glowing white robe. Or...something... of the sort.

RIP, young raven. You'll be with us, always xx

*huggles everyone, especially Holly's family*

I like to believe that Holly will soar high in the sky like an eagle - watching down at us, and smile

Rip, eagle girl... *huggles everyone again*

I think that I am very happy I got the chance to know the headless horsewoman, because I never had the chance to really know faith. It is also creepy how they died on the same day. I wish it was easier to say but I don't know. I wrote a poem for Holly but compared to the rest of them it feels a bit feeble:

Life passes quickly
It doesn’t seem to ever end
But time is a thief
It doesn’t stop for good-byes
It takes everyone too soon
(TO Holly February 16, 1990-March 14, 2008)

It was a tanka and I almost cried when I read it to the class. I feel that she deserves so much more. I am hoping that she is looking down on us and hoping that we will all be able to be happy again soon. She was never a sad person so I truly do believe she want us to remember her as she was not as she is.

Holly every night before I go to sleep I see your smiling face and I feel the pain in my heart knowing that your gone. I will move on and the days will be easier the moments won't hurt so much and one day I will be able to breath again. When all that happens I just hope I never Forget. Who could? You have touched my heart and I owe you everything. Someday I will see you again and before I have time to cry in the sky we will be tackled to the ground in each other's arms. **tacklehuggles the angel in the clouds**

It's hard. I wish there was more I could have done. More convo's I should have shared with her. I wish she had more time. As much as I wish I know it won't come true and someday soon, well not really soon, but non the less I will wait to see you again. Have fun with your daddy.

**is almost crying** That would not be good I am in BST.

I still can't really believe that she's gone. She was such a great person and everyone she met came away awed and inspired at her strength, courage and beauty. She always tried to be friendly and happy, even when her life was falling to pieces around her, she would still be cracking jokes. Even sometimes she got (understandably) depressed and came close to giving up, but would always find something to inspire herself with, and she would always pick up the pieces and continue with her head held high, smiling.

You know how we have families here on HE? Well I wanted to be her 'mom' but someone had already adopted her, so I was her fairy guardian/godmother instead. I would joke about how I wasn't taking good enough care of her, and that I should just wave my magic wand and make all her problems and cancer go away. I wish I could have done that.

Her personal motto was 'Hakuna Matata', remember? She tried not to worry about what would happen tomorrow, living life to the fullest, living life day by day. It's insanely ironic that someone so alive, with such a positive attitude, should die. It just doesn't make any sense. I wish I had gotten to know her better, and blame my stupid shyness for not initiating more conversations.

She was the sort of person who is automatically loved by all. It was impossible not to love such a shining, wonderful person.

My heart goes out to all who loved her, especially her family and especially Harry and her sisters.

Love you always, Holly. RIP

Oh my God... she wrote letters (PM's) to us all I just read mine, and NOW I'm crying. It's like... she's really gone.

What amazes me is that she saw everything no one else saw in me. I mean, she saw through that typical blonde and coffee-freak-bouncy-dude, and actually saw a person who ain't hyper 24/7 - and the worst part is that it took me this long to realize it myself.

Hollyyyyy...

I swore to myself I wouldn't post here you know. I swore it, because that would mean accepting it. And I've been trying not to, I thought I did my part. I wrote her a letter the other day in class, it's sitting on my dresser as of now and I have no clue what I'm going to do with it. Because I've got to keep it, I couldn't throw it away if I tried...

And now just reading the letter from Holly I'm crying again. And I feel worse about not doing anything, about trying to keep it low key and put it off in the back of my mind, that way I didn't have to accept it. But that's not right of me, because as much as I'd rather not admit it she's gone And I've got a million and a half things to say about it, but I can't manage to put them into words.

I guess all I can really say is that I'm gonna miss her so much and that I know that she's in a better place right now so it's gotta be better for her, which is the only important thing.

I've just read my letter. Holly saw things in all of us that we were just didnt notice or didnt want to ntice in ourselves.

I have to admit, i didn't want to celebrate my birthday on Thursday because it felt so wrong, and now having read her letter i am glad i raised a glass, well okay a bottle, to her memory on Thursday.

For her to think of us and write to us to help us come to terms with her going makes me feel so honored to have known her. And if anyone ever calls me Ettie Pie again i will always remember her.

The Pensieve will be printing a new edition soon and we're going to include any messages from you all for her, just a line or two, nothing much, so if you want to include something PM me or Streamies.

An i just want to say one last thing, i love you all. Each and everyone of you, even those who i dont know yet, I LOBE YOU ALL! Im going to go take all the red M&Ms outta my packet, i bought them today without even thinking and then i read her message, so all red M&Ms will be left til the very end, as long as my Holly (the cat who Holly said id subconciously named after her, even though id had my cat for 2 years before id met her lol) doesnt eat them, she likes M&Ms as well.

Hey
Even though I never got to know Holly I know I would have liked her. She seems to have been alot like me....random, Potter lovin'.

Hang on...I think Holly may have welcomed me to HE!

I'll check.

Anyway, I send my love to Holly who is now in heaven...


God bless her family at this time
LucyXX

Holly...

I don't call her Holly. I never did.
I remember the first time we talked, so long ago. The Hogwarts Experience Chatroom. She said a very shy and small hello and I asked her name.
"Holly. But you can call me Brunette."
"Nah-nah" I said "Everyone MUST have a nickname. Brunette, huh? Lemme see... I know! Brunny!"
"You'll be Brunny! Is that okay?"
"Yes!"

...


I can't say much more, I promised myself I wouldn't cry.

...

I know she's in a better place now.
I know she's watching over us and her family.
And I know she wouldn't want us to be sad, even though that's impossible.

Goodbye, Holly, heaven just got a new angel.
Shine, shine, pretty star.

I read my letter from Holly and I almost cried. I have not been able to cry and that makes me feel very lame. I never knew that she was able to guess so much about me. I never know she loved me a million red M&Ms worth. I am getting a shirt made in her honor. I loved and love her so much.

She was the best. I honestly don't think I could ever write a letter to all my friends about my death BEFORE I died. I mean seriously. I miss her sooo much.

I didn't know Holly very well but I did talk to her sometimes so I made these for her:


The other wouldn't go on grrrr

Just_Ginny wrote:

I know how you feel about the not crying thing. I haven't been able to cry, to really feel anything. I know I should feel sad...but I just get nothing. Emptiness >_<

I wrote that in my journal during composition. And later that day it rained; and I think it more or less continued onto this morning.

I didn't realize the significance of that until I was writing in my journal again. And the next period in school, I think the rain stopped.

I like to think it was Holly letting me know that she knows that I miss her a lot; and not to feel like I'm not being a normal person for not crying or depressed.

On the way home from my bus stop I sang bits of "For Good"

That is... coincidental!!! Cause For Good's on my playlist for Holly... and I love it... and at the moment, it's my alarm clock in the morning xD.

This is so hard for me. I cried when I found out. But not after that until it finally set in. Just tonight, getting online on April's fools day, it finally sunk in .

Holly's dead.

She's never going to get back on.

She's never going to 'behead' me in cb again. Or any of us.

And then the tears started again. I was talking to June the other night and even then as we discussed it, i felt like it was all a joke and Holly would get on soon and go "surprise!" or something. It didn't feel natural or right or anything like that at all. It gives me a tight, twisted feeling in my stomach as i type this, and when i think about it.

I told my IRL friends about Holly's death. I have about 13 girls (and a few guys) praying for her every single day in two classes (=]) It's sort of a comfort thing to me, to know that people can care about someone they never knew. But they saw how much it hurt me.

The day I found out, I had been talking to the person who had hacked Holly's msn. We actually had a natural, normal conversation. Then, I got home, got online, got the news, and started to freak out. What a coincidence it was that I had been talking to the hacker on th day i found out Holly had died.

Really, I'm still in shock, but now that it's set in, I hope it doesn't hurt so much. I loved Holly to pieces and I always will. She was so great, and she just gave off that light, airy type of attitude to me. Whenever I talked to her it just made me feel....great. I have no other way to explain it.

R.I.P. Holly.